“Would you swim across a pond, knowing there was a snake in it, for $1000?” My husband loves to come up with these little scenarios.
No matter how much money, and with complete disregard for the risk, my answer is always, “NO.”
I’m just not motivated by money.
Almost two years ago, I quit teaching because the salary just wasn’t worth my emotional and physical well-being.
I spent the first year, at least, in shock over my actions. I quit. I’ve never quit anything. Even with validation from a counselor and my Dad and eventually my husband, I struggled with my decision. Not because I was unsure, but because I left a secure job with a decent salary.
My husband had just started a new job, after being unemployed for over a year, right before I resigned. We needed the second income to recover from his unemployment. We still need it.
Ever since my resignation, I’ve been trying to make-up for my actions. I poured myself into my blog at Mrs. Hines’ Class. I signed on as a stylist for Stella and Dot. Even this week, I’ve been looking at job openings online. Just looking causes my chest to tighten.
But it’s all a distraction.
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When will I learn that it’s okay to just be? It’s why I resigned. I desperately needed to refresh, rejuvenate and recover.
I recently made some self-discoveries, like that I love swimming for exercise, and that bike riding isn’t all that I had imagined. I express myself through fashion, home decor and cooking to name a few.
I’ve decided to take my health seriously and make some lifestyle changes. I have a few business ideas rolling around in my brain. My passions are being stirred, and I’m discovering what I have to offer the world.
It’s like I’m just now waking up after a two year nap. And I’m just realizing as I write, that this two year slumber has been a part of the recovery process. It gave me time to rest. It allowed dreams to well up within my soul.
What are your hopes and dreams? I’m looking forward to what the future holds, but for now, I’m going to “just be”…
…It’s good for the soul.